#354. quick day at work
#355. early nap
#356. knowing I am not alone in this battle
#357. His hand on her today
#358. mercies that are new every morning
Mary Rice Hopkins: Miracle Walking--From ICU to Life
12 years ago
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
Monday, September 5, 2011
Sunday, September 4, 2011
#342. another great message preached
#343. a little girl who can hardly wait to go to her "new church"
#344. church with cousin
#345. sorting through baby clothes and remembering how sweet she was
#346. phone call with friend...so nice to know I am not alone
#347. a few moments free of screaming and crying...peace is wonderful
#343. a little girl who can hardly wait to go to her "new church"
#344. church with cousin
#345. sorting through baby clothes and remembering how sweet she was
#346. phone call with friend...so nice to know I am not alone
#347. a few moments free of screaming and crying...peace is wonderful
Terrible 2.5s
I've decided there's a reason why most people have their 2nd child before their 1st reaches 2 1/2...It is so hard for me to remember the peace and calm that comes with a baby as my whole world is constant chaos with a 2 and 1/2 year old. I'd love to have a sweet baby again, but I'm not so sure about this 2 1/2 thing again someday.
It has been a VERY long week in the Howard household this past week. I have been frustrated beyond words and exhausted mentally and emotionally past the point of reasoning this week. I am ready to trade my child in for a kinder model, one that listens, doesn't climb, and doesn't shout and scream. It's such a frustrating feeling to try and try and feel like I am getting nowhere with her. Don't get me wrong, I love her with all that I am, but it has not been a fun week as a parent.
I have yelled, shouted, cried, sighed, and anything else associated with frustration and defeat this past week. I have not been a kind Mommy, I have not been a patient Mommy. I have been an ugly and impatient and have been so ready to give up. Thankfully, several friends of mine have kids at the same age/stage and I have found that I'm not alone. Not that it makes either of our behaviors okay, but it is comforting to know that we are "normal".
It is weeks like this where I wish my friends were closer and where I wish we could just spend all day every day together and at least have company in the midst of this not-so-fun stage. I am praying this goes away really soon and in the mean time I have to come up with ways to stay busy and sane or else I may be putting my child up for sale to the highest bidder very son.
It has been a VERY long week in the Howard household this past week. I have been frustrated beyond words and exhausted mentally and emotionally past the point of reasoning this week. I am ready to trade my child in for a kinder model, one that listens, doesn't climb, and doesn't shout and scream. It's such a frustrating feeling to try and try and feel like I am getting nowhere with her. Don't get me wrong, I love her with all that I am, but it has not been a fun week as a parent.
I have yelled, shouted, cried, sighed, and anything else associated with frustration and defeat this past week. I have not been a kind Mommy, I have not been a patient Mommy. I have been an ugly and impatient and have been so ready to give up. Thankfully, several friends of mine have kids at the same age/stage and I have found that I'm not alone. Not that it makes either of our behaviors okay, but it is comforting to know that we are "normal".
It is weeks like this where I wish my friends were closer and where I wish we could just spend all day every day together and at least have company in the midst of this not-so-fun stage. I am praying this goes away really soon and in the mean time I have to come up with ways to stay busy and sane or else I may be putting my child up for sale to the highest bidder very son.
Saturday, September 3, 2011
Friday, September 2, 2011
New Church
For the past year we've been driving 45 minutes to get to church. The drive was worth it as it meant we got to see our dear friends each week and Hope got to play with one of her favorite friends. Since our friends recently moved out of state, we figured we should start looking for a new church that is closer to home. Our hopes were to find a church that had a good program for Hope that offered a story/lesson each week for her. We made our list of 4 churches in the area and decided to start at the 1 that had responded to my e-mail the quickest.
Week 1: Followed our neighbors to their church...really big church! We figured out the check-in system and got Hope registered. Hope walked into her close with no hesitations and quickly engaged in play. We found our way to the main sanctuary and found a seat with our neighbors, up high and off to the side. I didn't have high expectations as the sermon series was on the tabernacle...didn't figure it'd be very exciting. I was wrong. Pastor talked about the altar and the various sacrifices that were made upon the altar. He pointed out the emotional attachment that the people had to the animal they sacrificed and how sacrifice takes emotion and is costly. He also mentioned how each family was asked to give what they could...for some it was a bull, others a sheep, and for poorer families, a turtledove. In the Old Testament it mentions how Jesus' parents offered a turtledove. They were poor yet offered all they had.
Week2: This week was all about the laver, the place where the people would stop to wash and cleanse themselves after giving their offering/sacrifice. He talked about how the people would purify themselves and present their best before the Lord before entering into His presence. He talked about how we ought to offer our best to and for the people we love. How often do I offer my best to my family? At the end he invited people to come and be baptized, right then and there. They had 4 baptismal pools around the church and hundreds came forward, fully clothed, and gave their all. So amazing to witness God move like that.
Week3: This week we talked about the show bread. After the people offered and washed, they'd eat of the bread. He talked about Psalm 16:11..."You will show me the path of life. In your presence is fullness of joy. At your right hand are pleasures forever more." God wants to offer us good things. He desires that we enjoy life abundantly and fully. Are we truly living FULL of joy, living abundantly in His presence?
Hope loves her "new church" and asks to go often. We are so grateful for this new place/season in our lives and are praying for new friends/community for all of us. We've joined a couples Biblestudy on Wednesday nights and I am going to go to their Moms group twice a month. I am scared to death, but know that if I want to meet others and grow, then I need to leave my comfort zone and take a step of faith. I'm scared to death, but trust that this is where God wants me.
Week 1: Followed our neighbors to their church...really big church! We figured out the check-in system and got Hope registered. Hope walked into her close with no hesitations and quickly engaged in play. We found our way to the main sanctuary and found a seat with our neighbors, up high and off to the side. I didn't have high expectations as the sermon series was on the tabernacle...didn't figure it'd be very exciting. I was wrong. Pastor talked about the altar and the various sacrifices that were made upon the altar. He pointed out the emotional attachment that the people had to the animal they sacrificed and how sacrifice takes emotion and is costly. He also mentioned how each family was asked to give what they could...for some it was a bull, others a sheep, and for poorer families, a turtledove. In the Old Testament it mentions how Jesus' parents offered a turtledove. They were poor yet offered all they had.
Week2: This week was all about the laver, the place where the people would stop to wash and cleanse themselves after giving their offering/sacrifice. He talked about how the people would purify themselves and present their best before the Lord before entering into His presence. He talked about how we ought to offer our best to and for the people we love. How often do I offer my best to my family? At the end he invited people to come and be baptized, right then and there. They had 4 baptismal pools around the church and hundreds came forward, fully clothed, and gave their all. So amazing to witness God move like that.
Week3: This week we talked about the show bread. After the people offered and washed, they'd eat of the bread. He talked about Psalm 16:11..."You will show me the path of life. In your presence is fullness of joy. At your right hand are pleasures forever more." God wants to offer us good things. He desires that we enjoy life abundantly and fully. Are we truly living FULL of joy, living abundantly in His presence?
Hope loves her "new church" and asks to go often. We are so grateful for this new place/season in our lives and are praying for new friends/community for all of us. We've joined a couples Biblestudy on Wednesday nights and I am going to go to their Moms group twice a month. I am scared to death, but know that if I want to meet others and grow, then I need to leave my comfort zone and take a step of faith. I'm scared to death, but trust that this is where God wants me.
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