#389. baby gifts made
#390. shoes found for my favorites
#391. calm and drama-free outing with the girl
#392. ability to sew...even if not super well
#393. impromptu visit with Mom
#394. good evening even though none of it was as planned
#395. hockey tickets on the front porch...life is about to get busy
#396. adopted "Grandma" who loves my little one so much

#385. lost kid is found
#386. great new hires
#387. family close by
#388. happy girl to wake up to

Holy?

Heard this song on the radio a few weeks ago and I love it! It is called "What Do I Know of Holy?" and it is by Addison Road, one of my recent finds and favorites...

I made You promises a thousand times
I tried to hear from Heaven
But I talked the whole time
I think I made You too small
I never feared You at all No
If You touched my face would I know You?
Looked into my eyes could I behold You?

(CHORUS)
What do I know of You
Who spoke me into motion?
Where have I even stood
But the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire? Are You fury?
Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?
What do I know? What do I know of Holy?

I guess I thought that I had figured You out
I knew all the stories and I learned to talk about
How You were mighty to save
Those were only empty words on a page
Then I caught a glimpse of who You might be
The slightest hint of You brought me down to my knees

(CHORUS)
What do I know of You
Who spoke me into motion?
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Where have I even stood
But the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire? Are You fury?
Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?
What do I know? What do I know of Holy?

(CHORUS 2)
What do I know of Holy?
What do I know of wounds that will heal my shame?
And a God who gave life "its" name?
What do I know of Holy?
Of the One who the angels praise?
All creation knows Your name
On earth and heaven above
What do I know of this love?

(CHORUS)
What do I know of You
Who spoke me into motion?
Where have I even stood
But the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire? Are You fury?
Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?
What do I know? What do I know of Holy?

What do I know of Holy?
What do I know of Holy?

Whose kid is this?!?!

Lately I find myself asking that question when my once even-tempered, calm-natured, and kind kid decides to flaunt her naughty side. I don't love her any less, but man have there been times this week where I have not liked her actions AT ALL! Yes, I know, she is 2 1/2...but somehow that doesn't seem like a good enough reason/excuse for her these past few weeks. Around here meltdowns happen frequently, listening is non-existent, and kindness/sharing is a favorite past-time.

I find myself so frustrated and discouraged when she displays these wonderful signs of the "terrible twos"...this is not who I've been raising her to become. We've taught her to "be kind", to "share", to "use your words", to "ask nicely", "make good choices", etc. and all of that has gone out the window as of late! Again, I know she is only 2 but man....

I realized on Friday while she was displaying her new tricks that I was just plain embarrassed and ashamed of the way my kid was acting. She was being the kind of kid that I wouldn't want my child to be around or play with. I feel as though other parents are looking at me and thinking, "whose kid is that?! She must let her kid get away with murder at home." We are doing everything we know to do to train her up and teach her, but ultimately she is going to choose her way and we will then issue consequences when those choices are unacceptable. Geeze, I sound like I'm talking about a teenager...

It's been a rough few weeks and this is one drained and frustrated Mama. I'm not sure what more to do and find myself praying that this phase ends soon as I would really enjoy having my sweet, kind kid back!! No, this isn't an all the time thing and yes, we do have great moments together...but man are these naughty/trying moments getting the best of me.

Each week at church, prior to taking communion, I find myself confessing the same things...lack of patience with my kid, raising my voice or getting mad at her, lack of anything left to give to my sweet husband at the end of the day, not caring for the home we've been blessed with, etc... Each week it's the same shortcomings that I come back to and each week I am so grateful that He chose to die for me, to forgive me of these things over and over again, and yet still love me unconditionally.

#380. getting to go to work
#381. sweet friend who embraced my impromptu meltdown
#382. finally saying out loud what I'd been feeling...freeing
#383. health and safety for my family
#384. Grandpa who takes her swimming and shares popsicles with her

#366. cousin accepting HIM
#367. another life-giving teaching
#368. sitting side-by-side with family at church
#369. cousin time for my girl
#370. marathon day filled with hubby's nearest and dearest
#371. teaching Hope's cousin what "pray" meant
#372. time to talk with hubby
#373. a home to host get-togethers
#374. reading stories, a sweet girl under either arm
#375. hope for things to come
#376. admitting to self that she really is a "best friend", even though the term feels trivial
#377. realizing how much that best friend means and is missed
#378. quick bedtime for the little one
#379. understanding/empathizing with my girl and her exhaustion after being surrounded by people all day

#359. progress and a great sub at swimming lessons
#360. quick trip to a new playground
#361. naptime with minimal struggle
#362. cakepop trip
#363. great day with my girl
#364. great teaching @ Fuse
#365. hubby who provides for us and cares for us