Five Minute Friday: Send

When I was 16 I went on my first short-term mission trip. I spent 2 weeks in Guatemala and fell head-over-heels in love with the people, the culture, the language, the everything! It was while I was on that trip that I felt the hand of God upon my life like no other time. It's like I felt him whisper to my inner-most being, "this is what I created you for". I left those 2 weeks knowing that I'd be back.

In Isaiah there's a verse that says, "Here am I. Lord SEND me." That verse has been my prayer before that trip and every since. Send me, Lord. Send me into this world you have created and use me to show your love to others. I use to think that in order for God to send me, it had to be overseas. While I would still love to end up overseas someday, God has had places to send me here, in the US.

Over the years, He has sent me a lot of different places. He has sent me to teach Sunday School, to snuggle sweet babies while their Mamas encountered Jesus, and to teach little ones that there is a God who loves them so very much. He has sent me to whisper words of hope and love to teenage girls who have no family and no home of their own. He has sent me to what seems like the ends of the earth: to Calcutta to sing over dying women, to Cambodia to play with orphans, to Kenya to build a building, and back to Guatemala time and time again to help others to see how God is at work around the globe.

Most recently, He has sent me to a children's hospital to work in the ED and provide support and distraction for families in crisis. He has sent me to that specific unit, during those specific hours, in that specific city . . . and so often I forget. I get caught up in the day-to-day, I get worn out and burnt out and I forget that it was HE who sent me there to be begin with. He has me right where He wants me and there is no better place to be. Now if I only I could remember that on a daily basis . . .

Five Minute Friday: Welcome

To truly feel WELCOME is to feel wanted, expected, anticipated even! The places where I feel most welcome are those places where I can just be me. No facades, no pretending, no having to present myself a certain way. Some of the most welcoming places I've been are those homes that are lived in and messy but always have a spot on the couch where I can sit, relax, and enjoy a cup of coffee. But it isn't always places that welcome us. Sometimes its people.

I'm not big on "vibes" but you can definitely tell when you walk into a new setting or new place whether or not you are welcome there. Have you ever met someone and immediately knew that they would be someone whom you would gladly welcome into your life and and they'd do the same for you? Those people who you feel that safety, that peace, that welcome...those are rare treasures that are few and far between.

The best place to be is in a welcoming setting with a friend who welcomes you to be you. One who welcomes you to share your heart, to explore your feelings, to cry, to laugh, to hope, to dream, to just let it all out. My heart longs for these places & people of welcome, the places & people that bring wholeness and healing and life. It is in these times of welcome that we are able to regroup, renew and refresh and in a sense, fill our buckets so we can then do the same and welcome others.

Thankful

As I was reflecting yesterday (Thanksgiving) about all I have to be thankful for, the one thing I found myself most thankful for is probably the thing that people would expect me to be least thankful for. In fact, if you were to ask my better half (hubby) about this, he would probably highly disagree with my thankfulness for this one thing. But still . . . it is what I am SOOOOO thankful for.

Seven months ago, my incredibly talented and gifted husband was unexpectedly layed off from his job. He LOVED his job . . . the work, the team, the clients, everything! He was blessed to be working with other people who shared his beliefs, morals and values and he was doing work that mattered. He had a job that he loved going to and where he left at the end of the day feeling satisfied and content. His being let go came as a complete surprise.

What we thought would be a brief season of unemployment has stretched into a long one. Like I said previously, I don’t think he would necessarily agree with my thankfulness of this season in his life. It is not what either of us had planned and it has made life quite interesting . . . but I’ve loved it! Sure, it’s taken a lot of adjusting and flexibility figuring out to do life together daily and how to come up with a routine/rhythm that doesn’t make the other person crazy, but I think we’ve done okay.

I am thankful for day after day of waking up next to my husband. I am thankful that I get to come home to him still awake! (Prior to this season, he’d be asleep when I got home and gone before I’d wake up.) I am SO thankful that he was with us for my daughter’s first day of Kindergarten, for her harvest carnival, for her parent/teacher conference, and that he’s been able to volunteer in her classroom. I am SO thankful for how he engages our kid’s imaginations in fun adventures and playtimes where the ordinary becomes extraordinary! I am beyond thankful for the bond that both of my kids have with their Daddy that wouldn’t have been so strong had he been at work every day instead of with them.

I know the past 7 months have been hard and frustrating for him, but he has taken each day in stride. He has been fully present and engaged with each of us and has loved us and served us with his whole heart. I’m guessing most days he’d probably be at work rather than changing diapers or watching Frozen for the zillionth time . . . but he doesn’t complain. He embraces the craziness that comes with each day and makes the most of each moment.

This year, I am so thankful for the blessings that God has poured out on us through my amazing husband and the quality time we have gotten to spend with him. I know this season won’t last forever and I know we will never get these moments back, so today I am thankful. I am thankful for 7 months of extra time with Daddy, for 7 months of getting to talk face-to-face with my better-half, for 7 months filled with fun memories and time spent together.

Thank you Lord for provisions and for blessing our family with an incredible Man of God! Thank you for his servant’s heart, his character and integrity, his hard-work ethic and his deep deep love for each of us! Thank you for this blessing that wasn’t anything we would every ask for or want, but yet You have made it SO sweet and SO good! You truly are good, ALL THE TIME!

Five Minute Friday: Give

Sometimes in our lives we are put into close contact with people who make us a little crazy. They could be family, a friend, a co-worker, your kids, or a complete stranger. You know the people . . . the ones who get on your every last nerve, who stand a little too close, talk a little too loud, whine a little too much, or expect way too much of you. It's these people who are so hard to love. It's these people who when you see them, every part of you screams "RUN!".

But it is these people who we are called to GIVE grace to. It is these people we are called to GIVE love to. It is these people who we are called to GIVE a second chance to. This person, the one who makes you crazy, they are human too. They have feelings that get hurt, a heart that aches and longs for connection, a stomach that churns with anxiety. That person may be struggling with something we can never understand or fathom.

I've been reminded lately of the love that was so freely GIVEN to me by Jesus when He died on the cross. He GAVE His life for me. He GAVE me hope and a future. It is my job to GIVE to others, just as he GAVE to me! It is my job to GIVE understanding, to GIVE grace, to GIVE encouragement, to GIVE hope and acceptance. No matter how difficult a person may be or how hard it is to love them, we must GIVE all we have into showing them that they matter, that they are important, that Jesus died for them to.

Who is God calling you to GIVE love and grace to today? Who can you GIVE a second chance to this holiday season?

Five Minute Friday: Notice

When was the last time you really took time to NOTICE the things around you?

Did you notice the brilliant colors of the sunset? Did you notice the the tiny flower growing amidst the weeds? Did you notice the snow decorating the mountain peaks?

What about in your home? Did you notice the way your daughter copied your every  move? Did you notice the way your husband did the dishes with a servant's heart? Did you notice when your littlest one learned a new skill?

So often we get consumed with social media, with TV, movies and games that we miss the things around us. I'll be the first to admit that I spent way too much time staring at my phone and not nearly enough time staring at my amazing family that God has blessed me with. There are days where it is way easier to tune out and zone out then to pay attention to what is right in front of me.

In the Bible, Jesus tells us to NOTICE the lilies of the field. He urges us to look to the ants, to notice the mustard seed, to see the star shining bright in the night sky. He brings our attention to the small rudder that steers a giant ship. In order to see these things, we have to be aware & attentive. They are things that are small and seemingly insignificant yet contain great lessons to be learned if we'd truly stop and notice what is before us.

What is it that He is trying to draw your attention towards? What is He wanting you to NOTICE that may be right in front of you? Rather than focus on the big things, on the meaningless things, turn your focus towards HIM this week. NOTICE the way He is working and moving in your life. NOTICE the ways in which He has blessed you abundantly. NOTICE how much HE loves you by looking at the incredible people He has placed in your life.

Take time to NOTICE this week.

Five Minute Friday: Still

7 months later we are STILL waiting for a job for my hubby. We are still unsure of what God has up His sleeve for our family. The past 7 months have not looked at all like we planned. Somehow, in the midst of all the uncertainty and the unplanned, we've had peace.

"Be STILL and KNOW that I am God." -Psalm 46:10

He was faithful to His promises all the way back to Noah and Abraham and I still believe with all my heart that He will do the same today. Over the past 7 months He has provided for our every need and then some. He has blessed us with so many fun moments together and so many memories have been made as a result of the 4 of us being together. My kids have had their Daddy around almost every day and as a result, they have connected with him in ways that they otherwise wouldn't.

Not to say its always easy but we are learning to be still and wait for HIS timing...there are weeks that go by with no prospects, no e-mails, no interviews, no nothing...and yet we still know that He is in control. I know without a shadow of a doubt that HE has a plan for our family and that He has a great job out there for my incredible husband. I know this time together is a gift, a blessing in disguise. 

So even though we are STILL waiting, we are able to be STILL and rest in the assurance that HE IS GOD.

Five Minute Friday: Turn

"Is it my turn yet?"

"But he already had a turn!!"

"Please share and take turns."

Welcome to the world of siblings and just kids in general! Everyone wants a turn to be first, a turn to play with the newest and greatest toy, a turn to say the prayer, a turn to help Mom at the store, a turn to pick a movie, etc. When you're a kid, the world is all about YOU. Heaven forbid you should have to wait your turn or wait to get chosen . . . and so the tears ensue or the tantrum begins. These are to be expected with kids.

But what about grown-ups? When's the last time you just wanted to sit down and cry because it was supposed to be your turn for good news? Have you ever just wanted to throw yourself to the ground and kick your feet and flail your arms because it was supposed to be your turn for a job, your turn to have a baby, your turn to sleep in, your turn to have a night off, your turn to choose where you wanted to go for dinner, etc.?! As grown-ups we're supposed to be creatures who can think logically, reason, and wait our turn. But sometimes its hard. Its hard to watch everyone else get their turn around you while you are still left waiting. It's hard to watch others find success after success while you feel like the only think you're good at finding is failure.

Taking turns is hard, even as grown-ups. But it's part of life. And so we must learn to wait . . . wait our turn, wait for our moment in the spotlight, wait for our fate to change. And in turn, it will . . . we won't stay stuck forever. Eventually our turn will come and we will get a chance to shine, to succeed, to feel like a million bucks!